Sigh oh sigh. I wanted to began with the fact that tomorrow is The Day, little did i realized that i've been stoning and doing nothing and The Day had arrived. Currently The Day is like my world, my whole head and mind and heart is filled with thoughts of it. Scary ones and really traumatizing ones. I'd rather go back to Chung Cheng. Being late with bitch, not knowing anything just lining up and tadaaa, you got your results slip in your hands. And then theres the grand opening of slip scene, and then some stoning, and more stoning. And even more stoning. Then you realized you're actually not good enough. And there are joy and tears around you but all you can do is just stone with an empty mind. And then we see people everywhere, all sad. I guess it is probably because i was sad, so i assumed everyone to be sad and i view them as sad little creatures. And then there was alot of crying with the bimbos in the concourse and screaming at random little nubs staring at us. And skipping work just for sinful jack's place. I'd rather do that all over again. I know all the disappointment felt won't sum up to as much as what i might feel later on the day. The thought of it literally send chills to my spine. There are so many what ifs running through my mind that i dont even want to think about, i dont even want to list them out, i actually want to run away from my own thoughts. I need to get away, from everyone and everything and be alone. But i'm afraid of being alone. Okay abrupt end before i complain about how i always get lead on again. Why can't everyone be like me a make a clear stand? Its either all or nothing, don't leave things hanging. And this is why people like me need closure, it's because of people like you. OKAY STOP WHY AM I WHINING ABOUT SUCH UNIMPORTANT ISSUES ON THE DAY. I know i need to sleep but i'm not going to because i'm filled with depressing energies and because of you and i know thats stupid but i'm still doing it anyway. No, i'm going to sleep. Soon.